It was the scariest thing I’d ever thought. Sure, I’ve thought for a brief second… what if it’s not real. But I’ve never… actually thought about it.

If you’re like me, someone who has always been not exactly religious, but always believed in something there… let it sink it. What if there is no one there

Shit

What if there really is no one who can see me inside my head. I never realized that the idea that God could see it… conforted me.

It’s my worst fear, being completely alone. But I never connected it back to this.

To think He might not really be there… I never thought it would scare me. I thought I wouldn’t really mind.

But it did. The thought had entered my mind before… but I had never gone so close to the edge.

oh my god.
oh my God.
oh my God..?

Once you go there, you can’t go back to being blind to the feeling. You can pretend, but you’ll never forget.

I’ve always tried to find a median. But this, you can’t be inbetween on. This… you have to choose.