This rope feels snug around my neck.

I pull my head out to check it is all done right. 
Running my hand down the side, I count 7, its perfect.

I will take one step towards heaven
Then take one short fall towards hell.
I will stop midway, and my fate will be chosen.

I eye the note on my desk and nod to myself.
I see the clock. "9:37 P.M." The note said 9:40. 
I want the last sentence I write to be true.

I breathe slowly.
Thinking life over.
I bow my head to God
And state a prayer

"Please forgive me. This life was earned, not received. 
This was not your plan. But I feel it is the only escape. 
And so I pray. Hail Mary, full of grace...."

I read the clock
9:40
I close my eyes
I take a step towards happiness.
This rope feels snug around my neck.