“To get what you have never had,
you must do what you have never done.”

For as long as I can remember, okay while for the last three years, he has never left my mind.

There has never been a day that I didn’t wish for him, that I didn’t think wow he’s perfect, no I hate him, oh but he’s so wonderful.

I’ve needed him, but he’s never needed me.

I’ve wanted him, but he’s never wanted me.

I’ve loved him, but he’s never loved me.

And I’ve never done anything different, only have I waited.

And waited.

Forever.

But now i’ve finally realized, if I want what I’ve never had, I have to do what I’ve never done.

I need to do what I’ve never done, what I’ve been to scared to do all along.

I need to be fearless.