People think i’m just a bubbly person, that I have such a happy life. What they don’t see is what really lies behind the smiles I put on. The invisible and sometimes physical scars from my life expirences. If I could, i’d just wipe out certain times in my memories. It’s not that easy. The smile I put on but trust me, “I didn’t choose this role, but i’ll play it and make it sincere.” I know many people hate me and some just humor me. For every step my life gets better, it takes 3 steps back. You’ll never ever even get a hint of what lies behind my smiles, i’ve just gotten that good at hiding my torement. I’m not like this all the time. I do actually enjoy life, but sometimes it gets hard, too hard to bear. Some people say nothing can be that bad. Sure it can, take a look in my memories and boy will you feel so much pain and misery that I doubt anyone but me could figure out. What lies behind the smiles is a mind of memories that just never fail to torement me and eat me away on the inside.