April 8, 2008

…..I have to find greater happiness in reality. I know how to come out of my shell and be the real person my friends have grown to know and love. I know how to manage social situations. And I think I know what it means to be truly in love with a boy. (Daniel.) But my fantasies never go away. And to be honest, I don’t want them to either. For daydreaming is an important part of my life, as it always has been.
The thing is, however, I’m no longer in 1st grade anymore. I’m far past 6th grade too. Even so, I always feel more comfortable daydreaming than in a group of people. But if I always lived my life like that, daydreaming in the midst of fate, of what was meant to be, I wouldn’t get nearly as much out of life. If that was all I did this year, then who knows what I would be like? I wouldn’t know what it means to discover good, quality friends created by God above who open my eyes by sharing their viewpoints and personalities.