\Oh God, where to begin? I couldn’t figure out the best plan.

I decided to leave out the rape. A 5 -year old does not need to hear of that. “Honey, neither of us are normal. We both have a disease, the same disease.”

“But I don’t feel sick.” Liam threw his hands in the air, “i don’t get this…dis…dis…”

“Disease. It’s different Liam. As long as you take your pills, you won’t notice it at all.”

“Oh.” I smiled, I’m actually handling this well.

“Mommy, do we die?”

“Well everyone dies Liam.”

“But do we die faster?”

I felt the tears welling in my eyes, but I attempted to hold them back, “Yes Liam, we die faster than everyone else.”

“How fast?”

I closed my eyes passively, “I don’t know honey. Hopefully not too fast.”

“I hope too. I wanna get back at Meanie Girl and…” And Liam continued with all the things he wanted to do before he’d die as I smiled and nodded.

Liam always managed to put a smile on my face.