I thought I had a hold on this. I thought I knew where I should stand. I felt like I could do this. I knew I could do this.

Where did my confidence go?

I don’t know who I am anymore. I’m so many different things. I can’t keep track. The more I try to keep myself somewhat sane the harder the questions get.

Did you decide that I could handle this?

I’m not that strong. I can’t handle this. I feel like I’m drowning.

I’m so stupid. Stupid for believing I was finally living up to my potential. Stupid for trusting my instincts. I’m the stupidest person in the world. Why do people think I’m wise, that I’m stable? When they know they are smarter than me.

Here’s me. The stupid girl in the corner.