When I look back on my life, the hardest thing to do is come to terms with who I used to be. What I used to believe, how I used to feel, what I used to do.

I have been through a lot. I’m not just saying that, if you ask me I can tell you. But I used to not be able to tell anyone, I was ashamed of myself. I still am, I don’t think anyone gets over the regret of past mistakes.

The reason I can tell you, is because who I am today, wouldn’t be existent without that piece of my puzzle. I’m a puzzle. Just like any puzzle, I’ve got my really easy edge pieces that are so easy to find. However, when you reach the center, the core, it’s harder to put me together.

Everyone used to call me, Kiki. I decided that the girl they knew, this Kiki, was someone who needed to grow up. I was given a second chance. I wanted to go back to my roots, acknowledge who I am. Keegan, is who I am, but I will always be Kiki to them, and I can’t change that. But here you are, calling me Keegan, reminding me that I survived and I am okay.