something happened last night.

something i can’t explain to most of you.

something i don’t even want to explain to myself.

something that made me cry.

shake. 
 puke. 
 scream.
 run.

...run so fucking far from my mind that i couldn’t even

follow my own drops of blood back to where i had started

from.

i tried.

i tried to tell them.

it was an accident.

but i tried so FUCKING HARD .

they yelled.

doors slammed.

my heart, SLAUGHTERED .

what was left of it anyway.

they didn’t listen.

they didn’t even make a sad attempt to hear me.

no understanding.

ZERO .

hear me?

i said ZERO !

AM I NOT FUCKING LOUD ENOUGH FOR YOU ?

i disappoint again.

but you’re not surprised, are you.

shut up.