Twenty minutes later, i feel so much better… I do not dare look out the window… I clean up, put on chap stick and clear mascara… and step back and look at my self… I am me, I am beautiful with out without being told.. I great at what ever i put my heart to… and able to take out the boys like the best of them… I call Carmen… I need some down time, wanna do a movie night… She said, oh sweetie,i cant tonight… theres a few errands i need finished by tonight… I will let you know if things turn up.. PROMISE !!!, i smile. “Its okay girl, let me know if you can stop by”. So i go through my collection of movies… Hmmmm nothing sappy, no disney, no Godfather, man, I see a movie that catches my eye… Its one of my moms favorite movies… she purchased it for me to add to my collection, unfortunately its still in the plastic, and tape… I open it up and put the disk in the player, Gone with the wind…