It’s 6:30 am, and I still haven’t fallen asleep. I’ve given up. It’s impossible to turn my mind off.
My eye lids droop and my head bobs from time to time, but I’m no where nearer to slipping into my subconcious.
I can’t stop thinking about Ben. And now that the night’s events have had time to stew, Mike ignoring me has really started to piss me off.
Why did he take such a dramatic turn for the worse?
Did something happen with Angela? Did someone at work say something bad about me to him? Or was he just..loosing interest?
I desperately hope it isn’t that. It’d be a big blow to my confidence to hear that I couldn’t hold someone’s interest for more than a couple of weeks.
I plan on getting the answer out of him later today at work.
Still, all these problems seem irrelvant when I think of Ben’s sudden re-entry into my life.
The idea of starting yet another chapter with him scares and thrills me at the same.
But I have to focus.
I have a job.
And relationships to mend there.

Starting with Mike.
Tomorrow.