. I still cared for you then, and the way I was acting, I probably did want you back. The thing was, I wasn’t thinking about feelings for you, none of it makes sense to me now, my motives, and my actions, any of it. I don’t even remember or understand why I felt it was so important for me to do. When I met you I was young, I was innocent, I had just gained my freedom. The only person my choices could possibly affect was me, right? And because of that outlook on life I ended up screwing you, and I screwed my best friend.
You were the first girl I had met since Lori left me, and since I had left Michigan, that I actually cared about. I loved you in two weeks, and that’s strange for me. I don’t get too easily attached to people. I know now that if I had stayed with you, well, you would have been in for one whirlwind of a ride. But the way I treated you afterwards was inexcusable.