Why am I like this? I have never been lik this b4. I have never felt like this!! What have I done? What have u done 2 me? Where did I go? Will I be back? When will I return? Why am I still like this? Why can’t I express myself anymo like i used 2? Did I put this on myself? Is this juss a test, cause I believe it is. Do u think I’m runnin from u on purpose.. neva that! I love u wit all my heart! Why is this all happening now? I can’t handle all of this, well I can handle it through u.. because it is written that “I can do all things through Christ whom strengths me.” Is this for the better or for the worst? Why is my grandmotha not on this planet anymore? Why was she killed? I’m happy that she is safe wit U but did u know that I can’t remember what she sounds like, one of the women that raised me, I can’t remember what her voice? I loved that lady, I miss her so much. I’m tired guys, I’m tired of this but I’m not tired of life, don’t worry about me, I’m not suicidal, I’m just tired of being tired.