“Journal Entry 24 Neauvebre
This will be my final entry. I will no longer record my thoughts and reactions, as I have decided I am not coming back.
I understand your reactions and the mission’s goals. I will finish this project as intended. But my mind is made up.
Fifty-one months of solitude has locked me into a pattern, a pattern I have been falling into for my entire life. This is a pattern I wish to continue.
The ship is self-perpetuating. Air, food, and water can be regenerated for just beyond my foreseeable lifespan. On the acceleration orbit that would bring be back to Dela Sebras, I intend to use the atmosphere of Bena Huana to brake and bring myself into a high orbit, orbit once while braking further with remaining fuel, and coming to a geosynchronous orbit on the far side, intentionally stranding myself. I will have my peace at last.
Give the Planetary Director my thanks for personally recommending me for this mission. I am proud to serve the homeworld.
Monaco out.”