I needed diversions. Anything will do, as long as nobody gets hurt…just me. I guess I was borned to be hurt by anyone that wants to hurt me including the ones who claimed to love me, dead or alive. I felt numbed. I screamed at everyone, and everyone….have stayed out of my way. I blamed him, in 2002 I asked him to please let me stay with them for at least twelve months. They were sickly,,especially her. I took her to the city where I stayed for two weeks in marriotts living the life of luxury just for her, and him too, but he refused to go with me. He was still very angry of me popping in with out notice to him that I was coming around…”you could have just send the money! You didn’t have to fly to come here! You wasted all those thousands of dollars that you could have send to me! ” was all his words to my face the day I flew home.