In the time it took for me to walk home I had gone through 5 emotions: anger, frustration, confusion, sadness, and betrayal. Now, laying on my bed, I was numb. I didn’t know what I was thinking. It wasn’t so much what she did, it was more the principal. She just, wasn’t thinking.
But even so, I shouldn’t really feel this hurt, should I? Like she said, it’s not like I like him like that. But judging on the way I’m acting now, maybe I do.
Oh who knows anymore. I don’t. I don’t know what I’m thinking, what is going on in my head. It’s all a whirl of confusing thoughts going across my head like a slideshow. But it’s going too fast, I can’t make sense of even one picture. And I don’t know why.
I thought I could trust my friends. I was wrong with both of them. First, Jess, and everything that happened all those months ago. Or rather, everything that didn’t happen. But Sam, I thought I could trust her, I thought we could be like we used to, sisters. Guess not. My eyes closed. Before I knew it, I was asleep.