I remember a particular test they put me through, and it was definitely the worst. This particular one was very odd. There were no aspects that they created. I had not seen anything outside of my own mind for what seemed like ages.
They put me under again.
I was standing on nothing, all I could see was white. Then, I saw a black dot in the distance, slowly growing larger. Something was coming at me. I didn’t know what was happening. It was coming close, I didn’t even know what it was. I seemed to be a black ball rolling towards me. I felt a wave of cold as it passed through me. Colors flashed in my eyes, my limbs slashed from left to right, my ears were filled with the loudest sounds.
I didn’t know how this was happening, if nothing was created by them, then how is this happening? That was the worst part. I_ controlled it, _I was doing everything.
They were letting me drive myself insane. At this point, I had no control over my own thoughts, none.

I was killing myself. No way to stop it at all.