The worst thing is always seeing his face the instant before I am completely gone, because I cant help but look.
The last thing I see is his eyes silently saying a goodbye.
I have to hold in the big wave of emotion that takes me over.
wait till your around the corner. wait till you’re around the corner. You can do it, just a few more steps.
When I got there I lost all composure.
everything that kept me standing up tall and brave, because I am not brave. I am pathetic.
I fell down to my knees.
My body was shaking so violently I couldnt even think about standing up to get farther away.
No. I’ll just die here.
I felt so stupid, for ever believeing he cared about me.
Please.
What a joke.
When I finally stopped convulsing long enough to stand up I walked around the block. I couldnt go home yet. But I couldnt stay here.