In case you are confused, it is an internal battle with myself. Daily I suffer from depression, and from that was born a negative being within me. It has always tormented me and made me believe I am a horrible person – made me purposely screw up all the good things in my life so it would grow. Recently I lost the love of my life, A.L.A. (Nesdil on this site) because of it. And it has forced me to make this final stand. My weaker self, the kind one, has always been less dominant. But now it will change.
Korirei