I slid in the door unnoticed.
My family didnt pay much notice to me anyway.
I slid into my room, soundless.
I climbed into my bed, and pulled the comforter over my face.
There was so much to absorb.
I didnt know what to take in first.
I turned my phone back on. New Voicemail.. from Matt.
My mind said delete it, don’t listen, don’t believe a word.
But my heart yearned for him, longed for those arms to hold it together.
I argued with myself for close to an hour than pushed play.
“Elle. I’m not even sure what to say.. The only thing I can do is tell you the truth. I love you. I only did it, ended it I mean because.. I I knew you were to good for me, and I knew I would hurt you, so I did the one thing I could think to stop it. But I’m so stupid that I did the one thing that would hurt you. I love you Elle… I Uhh I I love you..”
His voice was twisted in agony, despair, regret, maybe even a bit of hysteria.
I dont understand it.
He sai everything I dreamed he would.
But dreams only last one night.