Just another day spent all alone,
Lying on the floor, thinking of the past.
When things made sense,
Where life felt real.
And all I want is for that to come back.

But this time around I’m realistic,
Done putting my problems on everyone else.
I’m learning how to stand on my own,
Pushing those away who want to help.
But they can’t, only I can.

The second means not much to me,
Sure, I care, but not like that.
I realize it now, just another outlet,
A cure that I won’t last forever.
A drug which only will make me worse by the end.

So once again I’ll do that little trick,
Make up excuses to make myself alone.
Honestly, I need it,
Cause without you here its all that understands me.
I guess that’s what I always feared.

You knew me so well,
And you made me feel so right.
I was afraid to lose you,
Because I knew no one would do what you do.
Know me like you do, show me what to do.

But for now, it has come to an end,
Something to accept, no matter how hard.
So till the day where like makes sense,
Self sabotage.