This reads like a poem, it’s a pity it’s written all jumbled together because it loses its meaning that way. Why don’t you break it into verse form? You could always post a part two if you run out of character space. Also, you should turn on your spelling checker because you’ve got some mistakes here.
(Oh, and your buddy icon – did it inspire that poem you wrote or vice versa?)

the icon and the poem are just how i feel but yes they do kinda fit togeather

I hope you feel better!