I just tried to keep from pulling away from him. I wanted to, desperately, but I didn’t want to hurt him again. I ended up focusing on James’ ugly face. It was the face that I don’t want to love. But I do.

This is so unfair. How am I supposed to pick between them? Stephen is so sweet but I don’t like him the same way I did before. And James, well basically he’s a jerk. And I’m supposed to pick one of them.

Once Stephen pulled away, I sat back out of his reach. And then I saw the waiter. Now I wasn’t so horrible to flirt with him while I’m here with Stephen, but he solves my problem completely.

No matter what happens today with Stephen, I will be back to talk to that waiter. Suddenly, he started walking our way. He must have seen me staring. Or no, that wasn’t it, he was staring. “Hey.â€? He said.

“Hi.â€?

“Do you want me to clean that?â€?

“Thanks, um what’s your name?â€? It didn’t look like I was flirting but I wanted to. Using this guy to get away from mine is the best idea I’ve ever had.

Well, not really.