and im trying not to hyperventilate. but eventually i get almost back to normal, but i still hav that feeling in the pit of my stomach. i enjoyed myself for the rest of the night, cause we got to go on the field after the game and hang out and talk and listen to a lame band play lame old songs. after i got picked up and went home and tried to fall alseep, i couldnt help feeling horrible. u probably think im a bad person, but i try not to b, and i NEVER usually use violence. please try to understand.

and thats y im freaking out.