“Take all the time you need Edwin,â€? I say hoping he knows I am referring to his snail relationship pace.

“Thank you,â€? He leans in and kisses. Well it’s about time.
He smiles, “Well, good night.â€?

“Good nightâ€?

He finally kissed me. I did not feel a thing. Well that is a problem. I feel even more sympathy for him, but sadness approaches. I am stuck with a guy have no feelings for when there is a guy standing right there, waiting for me to come to him. Chris is there. I think back to the amazing day I had with him and how much fun I had. I also think about that fact that Edwin would probably never come up with something like that.

I barely fall asleep because I am full of emotions. I am full of sympathy for Edwin. Anger and sadness for what I am stuck with. I also full of thinking about Chris. How happy he made me.