“I’m really sorry. I shouldn’t have done that. It’s just, I haven’t seen Sasha in so long, you know how her parents are, we have to do major advance planning just to spend a few minutes together. I mean, not to sound insensitive or anything, but I was sort of thinking of her when I kissed you.” He said with an unsure tone.

“Oh it’s totally cool! I understand. God, we’ve been friends forever, that was like nothing to me. Like kissing…I don’t know, my brother or something. Not that it was gross, just… Anyways, don’t worry about Sasha finding out, it’s cool.” I replied with the sincerest of smiles.

“Thanks! You really are the greatest!” He said, giving me a hug.

“Haha, I know.” I replied playfully.

I walked inside and cried my heart out.

What I hadn’t mentioned was that I had loved him for every moment of our friendship. I hated Sasha for having his love, and he was the only person I thought of. That kiss meant everything to me. But if he knew that, he wouldn’t think I was so great, would he?