Same old same old, I thought. Wake up, get outta bed, go to work…. I put Rascal Flatts on my ipod:

I head off to my job, guess not much has changed,
Punch the clock, head for home,
Check the phone, just in case,
Go to bed, dream of you,
That’s what I’m doin’ these days

The monotony of my life was really starting to get me down. My Life so far, was not what I had envisioned it would be after college. I had dreams of an exciting job, traveling to places far and near.. some purpose and meaning.

Jason seemed to have his stuff together. I envied him that.
Truth be told I didn’t want to marry Jolinda. The whole wedding thing was her idea. Like a run away train I couldn’t stop it now.

I needed to talk to Jason. To find out if he could help me out of this.. situation. I didn’t want to hurt Jolinda, but I feel suffocated. She’s a great woman to be sure. But my life isn’t my own anymore. I thought about quitting my job as well. Going off somewhere alone. Like some animals do when they go off to die.