With his last breath he whispered his son’s name. The regret finally broke his spirit. He would never get to say goodbye. But in the self centeredness that only an addict can experience Jasper felt this loss as his and not his son’s.
The instant before the heart stopped beating his entire life did not flash before his eyes. Only a profound epiphany. He realized that throughout his life he had lost nothing. He had simply given it all away. He felt a sense of amazement that he could fit so much into a tiny glassine envelope. His wife, his house, his child and yet there was always room for so much more. Junkie’s physics.