I once again think about what Chris would do. I push the ideas out of my head. There is nothing I can do to make things any different.

“Hazel…â€? I hear my sister say. I snap out of it to see everyone in the kitchen.

“Hmm?â€? I say and try to fake a smile.

“It is dinner time silly,â€? She says and giggles.

“oh ya,â€? I say and get up.

I come to the dinner table where my dad is sitting across from my mom, my sister is sitting across from Ashton, and the seat across from Edwin is open. Edwin stands up and pulls out my chair.

“Thank you,â€? I say and sit down.